It was July 14, 2021 and another improv class! I decided to have some fun beforehand with another selfie photo shoot while debuting the new Kandi’s Land merchandise!
You will see a few of the photos here in this post. I have already and will continue to add some to the Gallery page and use them when the spirit moves me.
As before, the shoot was a blast and again, as before, I had the entire place to myself. I looked for different and unusual camera angles and could not have enjoyed myself any more.
Then I drove to class and had dinner at The Burntwood Tavern, where I have acquired yet another bartender friend (see a trend here?). An hour well spent.
Finally the evening wrapped with improv class. Always fun and this time I got to do a scene with the instructor. I was so much better with someone who knew what they were doing, which gave me time to think a bit better on my feet.
So here we go with some more pics!
Random Thoughts: Look, I know I am blessed to be able to dress as often as I do. But in many ways, it’s like giving an alcoholic one drink. They want more. I want more. With the pandemic restrictions lifting, I am seeking new and different ways to get out dressed. I am going to different places than I did before. I am seeking to find different experiences. That is why I did the movie thing. That is why I am working on what I hope will be a spectacular bridal photo shoot. That was the great joy of my afternoon at the selfie studio, the evidence of which you see above. That is why I am taking an improv class.
In a perfect world, I would be Kandi all the time. I do prefer this version of myself in general. (Although in a really perfect world, I would not have these feelings, thereby having Kandi never exist.) But we don’t live in a perfect world, there is no magic pill. And I will admit, I go back and forth on this all the time. I have a friend, whom I love, that on occasion will call BS on me. But I put my thoughts down on “paper” so to speak, for anyone to read it. And it changes based on current circumstances.
And we have circumstances, blessings, curses, we have made commitments, taken vows and all those mean something. So I will strive to be better, seek ways to be an example and keep trying to find inner peace and contentment because believe me, there is none right now. Self-acceptance, absolutely, thereby eliminating the old self-loathing and guilt. But peace and contentment? No way!
Your “random thoughts” are very powerful ❤️
Every so often, I say something worthwhile! Thanks my friend!!
Again You have revealed a TRUTH with your comment about giving an alcoholic a drink. i have said in many (Well Several of my writings) that the more I am Marie THE MORE I AM MARIE. it is no longer an addiction or occasional urge but has become an accepted norm somewhere above 70 % of waking hours and even higher in the sleeping hours. Getting dressed in the morning is totally a function of what is on schedule for the day. On the days when obligations are NIL the day often becomes a multi-Marie activities and this different outfits. Just Love it.
I do enjoy being a Girl.
I am a great speaker of truth! Thanks my dear!!
Kandi, I absolutely agree with the sentiment you expressed. If I were able to dress more frequently, I would want to dress even more frequently. Sometimes I think I could handle coming out at work, as my company is very accepting and has a network of LGBTQ+ employees. But then reality sets in, and I retreat into my self-imposed closet, only to come out when the planets align (i.e., very rarely!). Cute t-shirt and shorts!
There is nothing easy about all of this. I find great joy in it yet always have my doubts.
All I can say Tina is we’re all in this together.
Kandi my friend you do just the cutest photos, love this one especially.
Guys just can’t do this kind of stuff.
I know you don’t care for labels but in my book you are transgender, I’m not sure you have ever stated as such but by definition you are, as am I
No I don’t do en fem every day but most days I do but I’m still trans. I guess for me it gives me a since of self and being able to accept that I am different and it’s ok to be such.
Love ya Rach
Rach, no argument, but I do think of myself as bi-gender. I have no problem being male and many of my male activities I prefer to my female activities. But I cannot deny the pull to being Kandi and all that she has become. Love you my dear!!
Oh so true. The more I dress and go out into the world the more I want to. I get braver every time. Thank you for your empowerment.
All I did is shine a very small light. You took the initiative, you had the courage, you did the heavy lifting, so to speak! Well done darling!!