Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been captivated by the allure of big, bouncy breasts—the kind with that perfect cleavage and jiggle that just stops you in your tracks. I called them, two hand boobs.
No apologies here; it’s simply my thing, like feet, toes, long legs, round butt, nice smile or muscles are for others.
Why? Who knows—fetishes are mysterious like that. They make hearts race, knees weak, and eyes linger.
But here’s the twist: I idolized women so much that I faced the ultimate dilemma—as a yound boy, do I “do”her, or do I “be” her? I chose both.
What’s it like on the other side? How does it feel to be the attractor versus pursuer? How does it feel to be beautiful? So many fashion choices? Being able to change your look at will (one of the aspects I really enjoy).
Do her? The first was easy; the second, Be her? A long journey of self-discovery and transformation that took decades of which I’ve written about numerous times in past posts.
I’ve recently finally got my own breasts as you probably are aware. It took two stages, nine months and lots of money but I’m so happy I did it. I feel like… me.
Now, I strut into a store, and the cashier grins, stares down, and waves off payment: “You’re good, thank you.” Inside, I’m giggling—hey, the H Girls will be paying for themselves in no time!
However, the point of this post is no matter what it is that makes your blood boil in a good way, it’s all good. Enjoy it.
If you’ve got a fascination that shapes your world, own it. Life’s too short not to embrace what lights you up.
Dr. Gwen Patrone
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Gender “envy” or gender “attraction.” Sometimes those get intertwined. I always knew the attraction part but didn’t understand the envy part until much later in life. With fetishes, they are entirely personal to each but they often are symbols to something else. An emotional need that needs to be met. With breasts, my read on that is that they are clearly symbolically “female” and your need to be “seen” as female needs to be met. You need to be seen as your authentic self. With a larger chest, you are seen. Being affirmed is a need to be met.
-Christina
Gwen,
Over the years I found desires change .
Many of us start by wondering what would it be like to wear sister’s or mother’s clothes , early on we don’t really think about what drives that need we just need to satisfy an inner feeling and the crazy high we experience , once experienced we can’t help ourselves for wanting more . At the time my sister was into ballroom dancing so my fetish became full petticoats , followed by stocking and suspenders , all this came with dreadful guilt and the fear of being seen so our bodies were secondary after all I was a boy not a girl ! I never bothered too much with boobs and the growth of body hair not too much of a concern .
Growing up dressing was just snatched moments the highs driving you on and the lows making you feel ashamed and guilty , vowing never to do it again BUT !
The reality is we are stuck with the need to dress , I began to question why , once you find some of the answers you feel less guilty and in doing so the need to look more feminine takes over . You find you’re secretly building a stash of clothes that make you look good , you start playing with makeup , you question how you could improve your body , perhaps gradually shaving legs and body hoping no one will notice . You start to take more care of your body , eating more sensibly to gain a more hour glass shape , looking back I may have formed a fetish for my slim waistline . Shaved legs loooked really good in stockings or tights so I began to love my legs , boobs were easier to form , I tried all sorts of methods but never really felt the need for something permanent . As far as size is concerned I choose a bust size that gave me a consistent UK size 12 ( now crept up to a 14 ) . I was lucky for many years I had a 36c bust , 31″ waist and 37″ hips , at 5′ 7″ I was more than happy knowing I could buy UK size 12 off the peg . Now at 74 , my bust is a 38 , waist about 34 and hips still 37″ , I’ve just bought two sundresses size 14 which fit great .
I struggle with my voice , over the years I’ve had a problem with my throat possibly more stress related and partly through a stomach reflux , I also have tinitus after I damaged my hearing from being in my school shooting team and not always using ear protection ( they didn’t bother in those days ) . I now wear hearing aids which means I don’t actually know what my voice sounds like without them and wearing them doesn’t provide a true sound . All I can do is try lift and soften it , I’m told I speak with a soft voice , the outcome is I appear to get away with it .
Do I have a fetish now ? I admit certain items of clothing still excite me but saying that the same items would possibly excite a women when she wore them . The best way to deal with a fetish is over indulge it ( safely !! ) it will naturally burn itself out . On occasions I wish I had real boobs but then I’m a natural 36B so I don’t need much to fill the empty part of my bra .
On the whole being full time ticks all the boxes , I’m a happy bunny , I keep things simple and enjoy my life .
I will always need enhancement to achieve my to feminine goals. I want to look as pretty and feminine as I can. I love the way I look, and have a much more feminine look now then when I started to crossdress. Being able to express myself as a woman is a dream come true for me.
Julie