How Has Being a Crossdresser Changed You?

By Trish White

I was asked this question some time ago. I had never really thought about it, so it made me really think about my feelings, my actions….everything. In this journey of mine. A lot of things came to mind that as a guy you would never really think about. I looked at how Trish interacted with her wife and I found that I have never asked her “what’s taking you so long to get ready”? Why, because I know, as Trish,  that when I go out I want to look my best in the outfit I’m wearing. so once the outfit is chosen I want to make sure the shoes I’m wearing compliment my outfit and the purse I’m taking matches, as well as making sure my make up is just right and my accessories go with my outfit. Which is exactly what Cis girls do. I know now why women need the number of pairs of shoes they buy and why a woman’s wardrobe takes up as much room as it does. Trish knows why females love looking attractive and presenting their feminine qualities as best they can. When I’m out as Trish and I receive compliments on my outfit or how pretty I look my femininity is confirmed and all the time taken to present herself as the woman she has become is appreciated and admired.  

The one thing I discovered in my journey as Trish is that women really aren’t dressing to impress men. They are dressing for the girls’ approval, this is the approval she needs because only they know what it took to be the woman she is presenting as.

I have learned, in my time as Trish that there are no gender boundaries for her. She doesn’t mind taking care of the household, doing the laundry cleaning the silver, washing the dishes or vacuuming the house, the whole time feeling good about herself. I have also discovered the softer more feminine side of things, that it is ok to cry and I do. I cry at things that I never used to such as tender emotional parts of TV shows or movies or what I read in books. I also enjoy what I never used to and that is ‘chick flicks’ or at least some of them. My wife and I were watching one and she said to me “you’re enjoying this?” I said “yes, actually I am”. I am far more compassionate than I am as a guy. I don’t mind showing compassion or feeling another’s pain and helping them deal with it, or consoling someone who’s in pain and letting them know I’m there for them if they need me. I found that as a driver Trish is far more less likely to speed and far more courteous than her male counter part and far less aggressive. Because of Trish’s inner self she is really and truly the whole package through her experiences as both genders. She wouldn’t trade this for the world. She’s received a gift that only a select few are fortunate enough to receive.

Oh, and towards the end of this I was crying. Hope you enjoyed it and gave all of you something to think about.



11 thoughts on “How Has Being a Crossdresser Changed You?”

  1. Trish, definitely something to think about and I have to say that what you listed in the paragraph that starts ‘I have learned…’ really resonated with me. It’s interesting to turn all of the things you listed round and realise how much we often have to suppress in our male lives – in my case, feigning a little boredom when my wife talks about clothes, handbags & makeup when, in reality, I’d love to do a ‘deep dive’ on the subject with her.

    And thanks to the seismic changes that have happened in my life over the past month, I can finally agree with your assertion that we have received a gift. This trans thingy can be a monumental pain in the backside at times but how many people truly get to know themselves in their lifetime? Perhaps most don’t need to – they just see themselves as ‘good enough’ and move onto other considerations. But seeing, and growing to love, this side of me which is hidden to the rest of the world is just the gift that keeps on giving and, I would suggest, our reward for enduring all of the challenges that life places on us.

    1. Amanda,

      So much “feigning boredom”! I became very good at that particular skill. It was my personal pastime until my wife finally understood what being CD/TG means. Now, she readily asks for my advice, which is one of several female bonds which don’t threaten her (and for which I am thankful).


    2. Hi Amanda,
      It’s so nice hearing from you so soon. I totally relate to the “feigning a little boredom”. Like you, I have had those same seismic changes in 2022 which totally changed my life and affirmed to me that what we were given was indeed a gift. I knew it was from the time I realized I was different but the gift has never been affirmed to me the way it has in the past two years. Just to be able to enjoy being both genders openly and feeling how each gender affects us is indeed amazing. Thanks for your reply girl friend.


  2. Trish,

    I would say that I identify with all of those things. None of them demand a female physique, which is to say men could do all of them. It just shows how much gender is a social construct. Yet, as a transgender woman I still wonder how much of that social construct, both for others and for us, is driven by something in our DNA or (to put it another way) most likely our brain which typically though not always divides itself into feminine or masculine in things such as smells, sights, sounds and touch.

    Thank you your interesting post.


    1. Hi Lisa,
      Thanks so much for your reply and comments. Personally I believe the gift we were given is an inherent part of our DNA or Genes. It’s only recently that my wife and I were able to talk constructively about my being a cross dresser and how Trish is a part of me. I had told her many times that there were two people in my body, the boy me and the girl me. But she’s only in the past year been able to understand this fact and I mean really understand. I think for the longest time she honestly couldn’t see what I was trying to explain. She is now accepting of Trish but not supportive but for her it was a huge step and one I’m very thankful for .


  3. I’ve discovered over the years that when fully en fem yes I’m not quite the same as the full male me.
    However being fluid I’m pretty much in the female mind set most of the time anyway and it doesn’t take me wearing a cute top or sundress to be such.
    I’ve discovered it really was just a part of who I was anyway but never able to express it as a boy or as a man
    Rachael is who I really am and I’m happy that way

    1. Hi Rachael,
      It is rather liberating when you find out that the feminine side of yourself has been there from the day you you were born, right? For me it took away all the guilt I had felt for a few years, kind of like a rebirth for me. Thanks so much for your reply.


  4. Trish,
    Sometimes I feel we enjoy a woman’s lifestyle more than women do which isn’t so surprising when many of us lived a live we never really enjoyed for so many years .
    The boundaries are so different , they say it’s a man’s world but I feel so much freer living as Teresa , I can be so open with my emotions .
    I recently asked myself after 5 years of being full time do I have any regrets , the obvious answer was NO but I admit that answer didn’t come overnight . It takes a while to build confidence , I had to stop making excuses for some jobs only possible in male mode . OK I admit I did get a double take from a dog walker when I went out to saw a large broken branch up with my chainsaw , my woodburner took priority over what he thought of a blond lady wielding a Husqvana .

    Perhaps your title question doesn’t directly apply to me as I now consider wearing male clothes as crossdressing . The obvious answer is we all know crossdressing changes us , I consider myself one of the lucky ones that all the changes I’ve managed to make are now permanent .

    1. Hi Teresa,
      I have to admit that although I’ve been a crossdresser my entire life I’m still a relative newbie to a lot of what makes us who we are. I’m 72 but spent the majority of that time with out the internet. So I was a very lonely girl with no one to talk to. In just over the past year I found a site that was 100% for crossdressers. A platform for us to talk to like minded people and share our thoughts. It was the first time I heard your comment expressed that trans girls enjoy being women and all that entails more than the CIS girls. I also discovered that there are many degrees of being Trans.
      I am a Trans girl who enjoys both sides of the gender spectrum. I enjoy doing boy things as well as my time spent doing girl things. I do lean more to the girl side than the boy side. It would appear that you are much further towards the female end than myself. But my title does apply to Trans girls regardless of where they are in the trans spectrum and I’m happy that you’ve found your place in the ever changing world of Trans girls. Thanks so much for your comments.


  5. Trish,

    Two things I have noticed since I began living as a woman:

    1. I am much more tolerant of those who are different in some way.
    2. I have become more likely to initiate conversations with people.

    Also like you, I will never, ever get impatient with a woman again as she is getting ready now that I have insight into not only getting clothes ready but into the long, involved makeup process.


    1. Hi Fiona,
      It’s so nice to hear from you again. You brought out two important ways that being trans has changed us. I do find myself being more tolerant of people who are different specifically because of who I am. I never thought about being more likely to initiate conversations but you’re right about that too. Thanks for your input Fiona.


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