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From Black and White to Technicolor: My Journey as a Crossdresser 

Thank you for sharing so much, Gwen!

I wanted to take a moment to share something really close to my heart. You see, when I dress as a female, it’s like the world suddenly bursts into color. It’s a feeling that’s hard to describe, but I’ll do my best to put it into words. 

For as long as I can remember, there’s always been this part of me that felt more alive, more vibrant when I embraced my feminine side. It’s not about trying to be someone else or escape reality – it’s about embracing who I truly am. And when I slip into those heels, put on that dress, and let my hair flow freely, it’s like everything falls into place. 

I know it might seem strange to some people, but for me, it’s like finding my true self. It’s like finally being able to breathe freely, to express myself fully without fear or judgment. And let me tell you, that’s a feeling unlike any other. 

When I’m dressed as a guy, it’s like living in a world of black and white – everything feels dull, muted, like I’m just going through the motions. 

But when I embrace my femininity, it’s like someone turned up the saturation dial on life. Suddenly, everything is brighter, more vivid, more exciting. It’s not just about the clothes, though. It’s about the freedom to express myself authentically, to break free from society’s expectations and be true to who I am. And let me tell you, that’s a feeling of liberation that’s hard to beat. 

Of course, it hasn’t always been easy. There have been times when I’ve faced criticism, discrimination, and misunderstanding. But you know what? I wouldn’t trade those colorful moments for anything in the world. Because every time I embrace my femininity, I’m reminded of the strength and resilience it takes to live authentically in a world that often tries to box us in. 

So to anyone out there who’s ever felt like they didn’t quite fit the mold, who’s ever felt like they were living in black and white when they knew they were meant to live in color – I see you. I hear you. And I want you to know that you are beautiful just the way you are.  

Life is too short to live in black and white. So let’s embrace our true colors, whatever they may be, and paint the world with the vibrant hues of our authentic selves. 

With love and courage, 

 Dr. Gwen Patrone


6 Responses

  1. Gwen ,
    I totally agree we do step from a black and white world to one filled with colour . I will add it’s not always important to be wearing the colour to release of the inner you .

    Even when I joined my dog walking friend this morning , I was wearing my jeans with a green striped Tshirt and my walking boots with pink piping and laces . As for makep it’s kept light but with the important bit of lipstick , so it doesn’t take much colour to sense the release from inside .

    Again It’s not always colour that matters but often the style of the items you choose to wear , it doesn’t need bright colours or heels to make an impression .

    On the whole I’ve discovered people relate more to women than they do men , I wouldn’t be doing half the things I’m doing now or making as many friends in male mode .

  2. Gwen,

    A perfect description of my sense of being. Isn’t the world of color marvelous? Teresa is correct as well, because by “color” I don’t mean only the colors of the rainbow. My femininity includes greater color in my my emotions, my words, my style and relationships,


  3. This past Thursday I had my monthly day out as Terri. I have numerous family obligations, but I look forward to my day out as my true self. We all have different situations. Knowing that you are not alone helps you accept who you are.

  4. Wow your post says it all…perfectly Gwen. This exactly how I feel as I watch Trish emerge in the mirror as she puts some colour on her face and brushes her hair to frame her pretty face. I’ve watched her come to life and spread her wings for almost 60 years and the excitement and contentment is as strong now as it ever was. I am truly blessed with the gift I have been given.

    Trish ❤️

  5. Just wanted to say that I feel the same way. Going from black and white into a color when I can express my authentic self and embrace my femininity. You are not alone in that.

  6. There is no doubt when I wear my feminine clothes I too feel more free to be me.
    A cute skirt for me is what really helps me to let go.
    Great post

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