Back to this analogy. July 10, 2024 a day in the office (my office, which happens to be in my house).
A Zoom Urologist appointment started the day’s activities after a 4:30AM five mile walk to start the day (all is well prostate-wise). Next a Zoom meeting related to the Food Strong event. I then embarked upon some “me” time. First up, ULTA to buy a few necessary makeup items.
Then I stopped at Urban Outfitters and tried on quite a few way-to-young for me dresses. No purchases there. Then I went to Forever 21. At work the prior day (guy mode) I discovered they had a $5 sale and picked up a fabulous fuzzy fleece jacket, three necklaces (one of which is in the above photo), a jumpsuit, a bodysuit and a fabulous little blazer. I also (guy mode) picked up two perfect bras for me at H&M. Nothing brings me greater joy than a bra that I fill without any inserts and my cleavage looks good doing so. I asked the cashier if they were returnable after I got home and tried them on (remember, guy mode).
So on this day, I went to another Forever 21 and tried on two dresses, one a pink tulle princess dress (I couldn’t resist). I almost bought them both but soldiered on. I stopped at a few other places, also trying on dresses but purchasing nothing until I got to Dry Goods and bought three pretty little dresses and one adorbs longer one. I am such a girl!
I then went to ALDI and CVS to pick up a prescription. Non-issues all. I remained dressed for the balance of the afternoon in anticipation of two more virtual meetings while I cleared emails and did some blog work with a bit of my ALDI wine.
Next a Zoom webinar with a digital marketing company followed by a Zoom monthly planning meeting for Food Strong. Busy day. Doing it all as me, aka Kandi. As I have commented to many, all of “this” changes each and every day. There are days I cannot be girly enough. There are days that it disgusts me. There are days it means the world to me. There are days I think I am a freak. There are days I know I am this way for a reason. There are days I am proud. There are days I numb myself. But every day I know, how it is that I will survive, how it is that I will thrive, is in a dress, with a giant smile!
I loved my casual little woman-about-town outfit.
July 11, 2024 I had the house to myself for the day and another Zoom later. I could have done the Zoom as myself, but I Kandi’d up and then made a day of it. So you see here how I was dressed the entire day, mostly working at home. But I did do a full garbage bag purge of clothes (barely placing a dent in the wardrobe), took them to the local thrift and then did a few hours of shopping, mostly trying on dresses in numerous stores. Another cute and casual housewife look for me.
Just the beginning of a full dance card on this week.
12 Responses
Looking great, dear Kandi.
Jocelyn
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Kandi,
We talk about the proverbial ” Rabbit Hole ” perhaps for you and often me it means obsessive shopping , I try and justify shopping with a need . Next week I’m off on a coach holiday to Cornwall , it would be so easy to kick it off with some new outfits but after checking my wardrobes I really do have more than enough to cover both the days out and the evenings . So this week after I’ve checked what is going to be packed I’ll give them a soft hand wash and if needed and then carefully iron and fold them , they look like new and they wear like new and my bank manager is still happy !!
I think we all have some very special items we save up for the big event , I try and not spoil the moment by being impatient and wear them for the wrong event , there’s nothing worse than standing out for the wrong reasons .
Back in my male mode days I liked smart ties matched with the correct shirt , one evening that I thought would be a special meal event , I was the only one in the room wearing a tie !! Thank goodness for only having an all female wardrobe now with so many dressing choices .
😊
Love the pink outfit and especially the smile on your face ☺️.
Thank you BFF! How’s about you share your photoshoot pics here….
Looking good my friend and yes I’m with you on that back a forth talk I have with myself about being this hybrid person, girl and guy.
The girl is definitely the dominate but I get it
But as I’ve been told many times you do you and yep that’s what I do
It’s never easy, never, is it?
Good morning Kandi, you look stunning in the pink outfit. I’m sad that somedays you feel disgusted and others like a freak. it honestly shocks me. I’ve never felt like a freak although early in my life (pre teen) I did feel disgusted. From my early teens on i was very happy knowing Trish was a part of me and I totally embraced her. But i’m glad they are just fleeting thoughts 🥰. l live you girl!!
Trish ❤️💋💕
Trish,
I can only speak for myself, being Kandi is not simple, never was, never will be. It does certainly make me happy, but so does a stiff drink and I often wake-up with a headache.
I want anyone reading this knowing this is not as easy as the pictures may appear.
Love you my dear!
Kandi
KANDI,
YOU ARE THE EPITOME OF THE GIRL/WOMAN WHO ENJOYS BEING FEMALE SO MUCH. IT IS A GREAT FEELING IS IT NOT JUST WONDERFUL….
WE ENJOY YOUR BEING A GIRL.
YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION.
GO FOR ANOTHER DECADE
MARIE ANNE
As always, I am day-to-day and I’ve been stringing together some good ones! Thanks my girlfriend!