Off to Atlanic City with my wife for two days. Yay.
Don’t get me wrong, she prefers me in boy mode but we have fun occasionally as two hot babes on the town.
I prefer to be Gwen but life’s about harmony for me these days. It’s a give and take. She gives me allot of space to be Gwen of which I’m so grateful for and I need to meet her needs too.
Oftentimes we think it’s all about ME and we forget that our needs also impact our loved ones as well.
It’s a lot to ask of her.
Throwing Gwen on her 3 years ago after 29 years of marriage would have floored many people but she showed compassion and caring. Do we have issues over it still? Yes, of course.
I often get obsessed with Gwen and she gently says she wants her husband back. Well, sometimes not so gently giving me a big dose of reality and a bit of selfishness on my part and I reel Gwen back in.
I do prefer being Gwen and I’d love to be her all the time but life has it’s own formula for each of us. I’m a person that can handle the stresses of dysphoria. I encapsulate it so it doesn’t wreck all of me. Then I deal with it by letting the “pressure” out by being Gwen as I’m able.
It’s not easy living AS a “DUAL SPIRIT”. It’s not easy living WITH one either.